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Dialogue is an arts and writing magazine of Calvin College undergraduate creative work that is submitted, curated, and published by students. This is a catalog of original student music.

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Track Name: Conner Luymes - January
In January I felt warm
The world outside me was transformed / transformed
Now February’s come around
And I feel as cold as the ground / as the ground
So I’m left wishing I had said the words
That I never spoke but wish you’d heard / I wish you’d heard
But I know since I chose to turn away
That you’re better off than if I’d stayed / if I stayed

So long, January
I’ll always reminisce in warmth
Now so long, January
Though you left me feeling torn

The months will change and people too
Perhaps I’ll become someone new / someone new
But it wouldn’t make a difference now
You’ve made your mind up anyhow / anyhow
But I hope since the days have come to pass
That you see the writing on the glass / on the glass
Now this gap that I feel is stretching wide
Between what I see and what’s inside / what’s inside
Track Name: Benray - Morning
I’ve found it’s a blessing that I could blank out
Watch TV about bakeries
Cause I can’t earn this, and I’ve tried to show you
That I could deserve this

Stable, the morning, and coffee, there’s nothing
To make me into something else
In me there’s a shifting, cause your worth impressing
And I forgot how to act myself

When my brain re-circuits and my skin cells shed
You’ll think I’m the same person
…But my head’s different

Stable, the morning, and coffee, there’s nothing
To make me into something else
In me there’s a shifting, cause your worth impressing
And I forgot how to act myself

Deep inspection hasn’t changed things
Only brings up fears I make believe
Only amplifies my OCD
Wipe this hard drive clean
Bring back the morning
Track Name: Bathwater for Jessie - 052216
{
...owlets...
the Barred Owl, chicks,
was on the ground, this morning
in the marsh.
and I got worried that,
he shouldn't be out of the nest because he fell out of the nest once before and the nature preserve people put him back in, and I thought.
he's fledged, and he's, looking awfully small and vulnerable to me
and he should be put back
or he's fledged
and, th, the parents, want this to happen
and th, the two parents were in a tree, watching
but but they were making a kind of a commotion, so I was afraid.
that he shouldn't be there.
but he was out
and they couldn't get him back so I called the preserve
I called public safety who called the preserve manager
and she
got back to me to say
It's True
He's, They've Kicked Him Out Of The Nest
And They're Watching
But
This Is His Growing Up.

but isn't he sweet?

~

'cause they expect them to learn to fly on their own—and they will continue feeding the chick
even after they've kicked him out of the nest
bringing him food
but, the point is that he learns to, fly on his own after, he can't be in the nest anymore.

But
it seems irresponsible to me—
I'm a much more protective mother!
}
Track Name: Jules Camp - Weekday Blues
lets sit here for a while
until we feel like were on fire
we’ll count in Chinese to three
and ill try to draw the character on your arm
but i can’t let it be
why can’t i see

from the inside out
to the upside down
you turn me around
you got me from top to bottom
from the bottom to the top

and i know its getting later
but we’re gonna find a way to be alone
till the phone stops ringing

The arrow keys shift up as you turn around
my knees buckle quick
I’m on a trip
i can’t come down
I’m by myself
and ill paint some words
on a fake canvas i made
and we’ll start to learn
why each one of us fades

from the inside out
to the upside down
you turning me around
got my feet on the ground
its getting sound
from the top to the bottom
from the bottom to the top
I’m going crazy
i can’t find my mark
what time is it anyway?
where am i supposed to be
where i am supposed to be
where am i supposed to be
Track Name: L.A.M.P. - Song 4
I’m no judge
But my wrath is certainly justified
A condemnation of the demons by which you abide
What of your wife?
What of the life you shared and built?
You made your bed
But it’s not the one you’re sleeping in

All those times you swore that you were ready for God to do what He will
Well He finally came through with the check and you’re passing off the bill

I’ve heard the truth
Turns out it’s sicker than fiction
From your side here is my predilection
I never planned for my words to cut so deep
But I held my tongue like a sword unsheathed
To which you reply,
“Job well done, you’ve hurt me.”

All those times you swore that you were ready for God to do what He will
Well He finally came through with the check and you’re passing off the bill
Track Name: Conner Luymes - Just Be Still
The world is spinning / but I am standing motionless
No one stops / to catch their breath even for a bit
Just be still / and let me listen to the silence
I think you are / you’re supposed to fill this absence
I know it’s you

Tell me why I feel I’ve turned to stone
I’ve turned to stone
Tell me why I feel so alone
I’m so alone

I’ve been fighting / this never-ending motion illness
All I want now / is to remain in the stillness
So just be still / and listen with me to the silence
Close your eyes / and watch the pictures on your eyelids
I know it’s you
Track Name: Douglas Fir - Taco Bell
Meet me at Taco Bell
after the show
we can swap plans
that'll never happen
but it's always better after twelve
and maybe this time
they won't kick us out

it's January in Berea
the concrete steps
are steep and they're covered in ice
the heater's broken
we've got our coats on in the basement
it was winter then,
and it's winter now
Track Name: Maddy Wiering - Faster
I fell for you faster than the train a coming
Even though I knew that you’re not what I need
End I wanted you faster than the horses running
Though the night

And so I sing for the words that I cant say
And the things that I wish would go away
So I write these songs for the feelings I cant show
I love you, but I gotta let you go

I saw the way your eyes were when I caught you looking
In them I saw the signs that you wanted me
And I recognized the way you looked
When I was in your gaze

And so I sing for the words that I cant say
And the things that I wish would go away
So I write these songs for the feelings I cant show
I love you, but I gotta let you go

And I don't want to say goodbye
Don’t want to let you go,
And I just want to fly
But we both know…

That that train’s left the station and that ship has sailed
My mind stays the course but my heart has failed
and I fooled myself into needing you,
Did I fool you too, did I fool you too

And so I sing for the words that I cant say
And the things that I wish would go away
So I write these songs for the feelings I cant show
I love you, but I gotta let you go
I love you, but I gotta let you go
Track Name: Benray - A Long Airplane Ride
I haven’t seen you, haven’t seen you
In a long time, are you just fine?
How will it go? Cause in my mind
When I arrive, after that airplane ride….

Your right there, your right there
Breath in the warm air
I’ll hold you tight
Your right there, your right there
Just like I pictured
Under a spotlight

A football field, no daffodils
Just you and I, bright moon in the sky
And I’ll tell you that I’m thankful
These months were hard, an earnest truth

Would you tell me, would you tell me
Would you fill me in
On everything, what you were thinking
What you experienced

It’s early morning, the roads are empty
Driving home…it’s dead quiet
I can’t help thinking, how we don’t have it all figured out
…But it’s alright

Cause you’re right here, Grand River drive, plenty of sunshine
Making up for lost time
You’re right here, a soundtrack next to a skyline
Making up for lost time
You’re right here, down Honey Creek across a boardwalk
Making up for lost talk
And when your not here, could I drive there? Not a Creek view,
But maybe I’d see you
Track Name: L.A.M.P. - "Tim Allen" in E Major
We’re always waiting for something else
To beat out what we have
And I’m always waiting for someone else
Better than you to come around
But each Thanksgiving I crawl out to your car
To push the line further out from its start

Don’t ever let me complain about being lonely again
‘Cause I keep messing with your head
It’s difficult to determine which is worse
The way the weighted words feel empty passing through my teeth
Or how they ring inside your ears and keep you from sleep

Whenever I hear your name it comes in bursts
Apathy and shame in equal parts
Part of me hopes for change, a brand new start
There’s no way to reclaim my dignity or your heart

Dead ends are the roads we follow
‘Till I leave you empty and alone